Shane, I am so angry tonight. I miss you so badly. I am angry that you left me.

I was downstairs a little earlier & looked thru some more of your "stuff". I hate doing this. I was happy to find a couple more recent pictures of you but I hate that all of your things are here in boxes & I have to go thru them little by little. I want you to have your own stuff with you - I only want you to show me what you want me to see.

I still can't believe you are gone. I don't want to live without you. How many times have I told you that?

I found one of your speeding tickets tonight - over 100 mph in a 65-mph zone??? OH, MY WORD!!!!! Well, guess what - I drove over 100 mph one time in my life - scared me enough not to do it again. :-)

I love you.